A little faith is what I need. I wrote and sent out a newsletter with updates from Mexico and one part asking for prayer and financial support. I know that the support is not in my hands, that it is the Holy Spirit of God who will make generous and thoughtful the people I've reached out to. But I need faith. I have this feeling over me that if people do send financial support, it won't be enough and I won't know what to do with the money. I also have this feeling over me that I won't even be able to raise 10% of what I need (which is just $200). I feel bad feeling this way because it shows how little my faith is in the God who makes all things possible, and in the people who make up the church. (Lord, increase my faith.)
I didn't want to write the newsletter in first place because of these feelings that stem from doubt. But I wrote it and sent it out and, still, I struggle with doubt. I prefer to be independent, being able to do things on my own. (So Lord help me and humble me.) I have this idea, this belief that things will always work out whether they are planned or not. That even if I am unable to take the course while here in Mexico through the support of others, I will be able to in the future to support myself and get certified to teach ESL.
I need a little faith that God can do the impossible even in such a short time.
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